The Importance of an Unhappy Adolescence

201

Being unhappy is never wholly to be recommended, but if there is any period of life in which

if the mood may be justified and in certain ways important, then it is roughly between

the ages of 13 and 20. It is hard to imagine going on to have a successful or even somewhat

contented next six decades if one has not been the beneficiary of a good deal of agonising

introspection and intense dislocation in this span. At the root of adolescent sorrow and

rage is the recognition that life is hugely harder, more absurd and less fulfilling than

one could ever hitherto have suspectedor had been led to suppose by kindly representatives

of the adult world. The sentimental protection of childhood falls awayand a range of

searingly malevolent but profoundly important realisations strike. For a start, one recognises

that no one understands. That isn’t quite true, but of course, the more complicated

any human being is, the less likely they are to be easily and immediately understood. Therefore,

as a child develops into an adult, the chances of those around them exactly sympathising

with and swiftly grasping their inner condition necessarily decreases sharply. The first response

of the teenager is to think themselves uniquely cursed. But the better eventual insight is

that true connection with another person is possible yet astonishingly rare. This leads

one to a number of important moves. Firstly, to a heightened and more appropriate gratitude

towards anyone who does understand. Secondly, to greater efforts to make oneself understood.

The sullen grunts of early adolescence can give way to the enormous eloquence of the

poetry, diaries and songs of later teenagehood. The most beautiful pieces of communication

humanity has ever produced have largely been the work of people who couldn’t find anyone

in the vicinity they could talk to. And lastly, the sense that one is different from other

people, though it may be searingly problematic at the time, represents a critical moment

when a new generation starts to probe at and selectively improve upon the existing order.

To be 16 and find everything perfect as it is would be a terrifyingly sterile position to adopt.

A refusal to accept the folly, error and evil of the world is a precondition of later achievement.

There really seems no alternative but to be miserable in mid-adolescence if one is to

stand any chance of making a go of the rest of one’s life. Another key realisation of

adolescence is that one hates one’s parents. Yet it is truly an enormous tribute to the

love and care of parents if their teenage children turn around and tell them at the

top of their voice that they loathe them. It isn’t a sign that something has gone

wrong, it’s evidence that the child knows they are loved. The really worrying teenagers

aren’t those who misbehave around their parents and take out their random misery upon

them, it’s those who are so worried about not being loved, they can’t afford to put

a foot wrong. To develop proper trust in other human beings, it can be deeply important to

be able to test a few examples, to tell them the very worst things one can think of, and

then watch them stick around and forgive one. You have to have few gos at breaking love

to believe it can be solid. And, of course, one’s parents really are rather annoying

in many ways. But that too is an important realisation. We would never leave home and

become parents ourselves if we weren’t at some level compensating for the problems,

mistakes and vices we had first identified in our own parents at fourteen and a half.

Another source of teenage sorrow is how many big questions suddenly fill one’s mind,

not least: what is the point of it all? This questioning too is vital. The sort of questions

that adolescents raise tend to get a bad name, but that is more to do with how they answer

them than with the questions themselves. What is the meaning of life? Why is there suffering?

Why does capitalism not reward people more fairly? Adolescents are natural philosophers.

The true end-point of adolescence is not, as it’s sometimes suggested, that one stops

asking huge questions and gets on with the day to day. It’s that one acquires the resources

and intelligence to build an entire life around the sort of big questions that first obsessed

one at seventeen. Lastly, and most poignantly, teenagers tend to hate themselves. They hate

the way they look, how they speak, the way they come across. It feels like the opposite

of being loved, but in fact, these isolated, self-hating moments are the start of love.

These feelings are what will, one day, be at the bedrock of the ecstasy well feel

in the presence of that rare partner who can accept and desire us back. Tenderness will

mean nothing to us unless we first spent many nights alone crying ourselves to sleep. Nature

appears to have so arranged things that we really can’t get to certain insights without

suffering. The real distinction is between suffering with a purpose and suffering in

vain. For all the horrors of adolescence, one of its glories is that the suffering it

inflicts is largely securely rooted in some of the most crucial developments and realisations

of adulthood. These fascinatingly miserable few years should be celebrated for offering

us suffering at its best.

Thank you for watching, liking and subscribing.

If you want more, why not visit us in person and attend a class?

Or take a look at our shop at the link on your screen now?

Kliknite na sve nepoznate reči da biste saznali njihov prevod, i tako shvatili njihovo značenje u datom kontekstu.
Za prevođenje fraza pritisnite Ctrl i kliknite na više reči.